I look out my window

And i see these older adults, complaining, about the same sh**...

Some one is watching on a pidostal....someone is judging...and putting complaints...on others...

A black kid is behaving bad...some hispanic guy is swearing off his child, some white mom is pushing around her daughter. Whose worse, those that do, or does that watch? They always told me, when i was younger dont get your self stuck in affairs that aren't yours. So that now i am conditioned to watch a man, or women beat up their child in the middle of a public bus....or the street.

Ive watched an illegal haitian run away from the police. I see a gun pointed at another man, and I just watch from the distance. Am i suppose to think I am on a pidostal? That I am just better then them? Do i simply close my eyes? Do I look away? Do i walk away? Whats worse, them or me?

I never liked the girl heroin, who grew up hiding, in her beauty and innocence. Just because she was never accepted into the hard world, she never made a hard mistake. She was never given the responsibility to grow up in the hard world, always protected, always beautiful, always sane. I never admired"her".

I always admired the ones, the ugly, arrogant, skinny girls, fat girls who would kick the ass out of some one who was being stupidly arrogant or stubborn too. Or just those who would risk their shallow appearances to stand up for another kid, even if its out right in an informal matter. Those looking from the pidostal, can easily judge and say "Whats wrong with that girl?" and look down. But since these view seers are so narrow minded theri never their long enough, and were never even involved in those girl lives, to see the outcome. The girl usually ends up becoming friends with the other girl she fought with in the end. Its like something cancelled something out. Some smakin cancelled out someones hard headedness....but in the mean while the spectator just assumes the world is cruel with "those kinds of people". Meanwhile their wallowing, in selfpity, or taking drugs. stressing stessing stressing.

the world tends to fix itself naturally if you stand long enough to watch the whole outcome.

thats what i am trying to do. Not to run away from these "strange" uncomfortable situations. If i deserve a beaten for being a chicken, than i want to atleast be able to out grow that someday.

Having a job, going to school is dandy and all. But nothing compares to everything this world has to offer.