Harmonize

I get in alot of peoples nerves... I can tell..well I always could tell.

Vent TIME- Its just the facial reactions..thats so fucking discriminating. Perhaps im wrong about certain things, maybe its the way I grew up...but its just makes it harder when people judge. For example... when people judge black people by labeling them "mean or under educated" immediately by doing so, they (the people who judge) give UP on being godly like. Which is simply another way of saying a Human being. who realizes they are human beings

Judgemental folk have this problem of elluding the situation, by judging...you compromise yourself...and that other person in need of help. By being a wuss..a pussy (as blunt as i can be) You deny YOURSELF and the other person at hand the questions that should be asked...when you are under a stressful situation

Question that should be asked like.
Was this kid abused, by his mother? Did this kid have dreams once? What were her/his dreams? Why is she/he angry? Why?

Instead people perfer the easy way of living, by living bothered by someone elses existance, and simply comforming...staying silent, holding silent knives...in their pocket. Talking, gossiping, negative unnessary, gossip, to their friends. Keeping their shit a secret from the light of judgement. So that they dont have to hear someone else tell them that their wrong. People dont like to be judged but they still judge. And they still think their better than those that are open about their weaknesses....who have enough self confidence or perhaps faith in life...to talk about it. And perhaps even have enough self sonfidence to stand openly corrected.

And yet none of this is praised in society. No one wanst to see themselves clearly it seems. And its not that bad...just ask neighboring countries...

i perfer those who are openly negative then those who are quietly negative. (In certain situations). because atleast those who are openly negative you know who THEY ARE. And You can actually SAY SOMETHING BACK. Wow honestly how nice are they? Seriously? But people who keep their shit (excuse my french) a secret in disguise make those who actually express themselves, look...like their devilish. No exxageration. i've just meet too many manipulative women..who thrive unto this silent...gossip. I being one of them, at one point in my life...who lived with the delussion that i was still perfect, who hypocritically put others down because they were different.

i'm not perfect and i am guilty of everything. thats why im glad i have friends who slap me when necessary. Not literally but who wont sugar coat things, even if i cry. Even my boyfriend, will make me self destruct in front of strangers. Why should i care, i shouldnt but i forget about reality when my ego has had a hard kick in the ass. Thats what i deserve for being a beautiful human being who fails to use her big head. I dont hold pity for me, but I DO Run away, and ALOT. Which is something ive been trying to comfront more and more these days. My own demise, my own dellusions of life. My own negative thoughts may be cleansed off my brain...

Thats all i want harmony, and be a harmonizer. not a follower, not a commoner, not a gossiper. Just a genuine human being called Jessica. Just that and nothing more and nothing less.

p.s- who agrees and disagrees?

I feel like I need to listen to Stairway to Heaven. I love Stairway to Heaven.