i just hope

Dear Joseph,

i just hope you eat...and get better. i dont know how it'll all get better but it will....

i'll take care of your dogs. and i wont say another word. i wont say another word.
i wont care anymore.
I wont care anymore.
I wont bother you about them, anymore.
I wont bother you about them anymore.

Just get better Joseph.

i cant apologize, for leaving you...i cant apologize for you leaving me...
i cant apologize for the fact that you are alone. I cant apologize for the fact that you will be alone.
I cant apologize about your sisters death, i cant replace her.

Cry as long as you need it. Cry as long, as you need to. Call me to cry.
I will listen. I will listen.


you need to eat, little things.
Just like I am.
eat apples, eat yogurts, eat bananas, eat cereal, and cuban food, eat garbage, eat.

Just eat.

your sisters journal, is there if you ever want to read it, preciousillusion. its in your gmail.
dont let your sisters death be the fall...of you. But let it be the rise of you.

Goodluck, because it will not be easy.
But like Dyce said, it wont become easier, It'll just get less harder over time.
And that it will.