And I am not saying justice as this thing that people do like " O! you hurt me, so now I am going to hurt you back". I mean Real justice, stand your ground, dont undermine your self by turning "like them" like these little adult kids throwing a bitch fit because mommy didnt give them the toy they.... wanted. BOoo Hooo. Now the little kid, turns to "Let me show you who is boss, and scrapes you with his nails, or plays little tricks on you, with their big car"
This is the stupid mentality of people here in South Florida, specifically Pembroke Pines / Weston/Davie? West Miramar and who knows hundreds of other places down here I am sure. This is the land of the accepted spoiled children/adults, where retards roam freely with their hummer cars, showing you whose BOSS. LMAO. Please....people need a wake up call to reality. Nobody gives a shit. I like it here, but I find it funny how grown ups act.
Its hard to grow up, its even harder growing up in fear, or by holding to an ego. Which to me all are all the same thing. (The ego to me comes from fear of the unknown, and it establishes it self as "God" in some people's consciousness, this is wear you get the ignorant/hardheaded/stupid type down here in south Florida). And I am guilty of having an ego, but damnit im trying to withdraw from it and conquer it, with sheer love and happiness. I dont believe the ego believes in mercy, I believe thats your human side. I dont believe the ego deserves mercy, You do. I dont have tolerance for the ego.
But let me tell you shortly what happened. I was driving into a plaza that had a, 4 way intersection and i had the right of way (no stop sign for me), but a car that had been waiting their at the stop sign, didnt notice me, or decided to act ignorant of my presence being there, and decided to drive his/her car forward. I stopped my car obviously, so that we wouldnt crash. The driver in the other end, ends up regretting their move, and stalls their in the middle of the intersection. Ok i flash my lights, to tell them continue on. Preferably, i would rather that person, guilty or not of ignorance to stay out of the middle of the intersection.
This red SUV starts honking at me from behind to move forward. This person doesnt know I flashed my lights, to get the other car out of the intersection. These people are impatient. So i make this obvious hand gesture that they can clearly see, "what do you want me to do?" since they keep on hocking. Ends up at that moment an old man and i guess his little niece, find am opportunity to cross the street in the plaza, now they have the right of way, people always have the right of way.
As stupid and normal as this all sounds, people live in a box of their own. If the world isnt perfect for them, i let you know they'll have their revenge...lol. After the pedestrians passed, I went forward, as normally as possible, I didnt suddenly speed up faster because some one behind me wants me to (which i use to do), or because i felt embarrassed (to be honest i always feel a hint of embarrassment when someone honks at me). And honestly, i wasnt even focusing on that. I just wanted to get myself to feeling relaxed again.
This is the stupid part, the red SUV that was driving behind me, right when I am about to make it the end where their is a stop sign, speeds up, to cutt me off. So they speed up 50mph to stop 15ft in front of me, to wait at the stop sign...
Like I said I am still someone who fills my ego, by writing this to you, though i try not to give it more bait. This is the duality inside of me. the wiser part of me, says, the one that can see the bigger picture says. Dont even worry about what other people think or do. Dont even worry. Dont worry, dont worry, dont worry. Its not good to have this mentality of "I have to be perfect so that i dont give my ego more reason to... hate myself" Like I am trying hard only to be perfect, because i dont want a reason for other people, or myself to not like me* its more like ...who cares? As long as your happy who cares?
I know their is a better way of handling the situation, atleast with myself. And not with that aloof driver. But till this day, i have yet to discover the infinite possibilities...the infinite possibilities of self love, and self confidence. This is my journey, through who knows 76 more years on this planet. i will discover more ways and more ways to love myself...
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